Good points Rev, I really appreciate all the feedback from everyone.. Yes she has cousins, hot ones at that.
Yes I am making excuses for her. I can admit it. I'm hardheaded when I want something really bad. But I am prepared for the worst when she comes back (13 more days!).
After feeling how i felt these past few days i don't think i would be able to feel lower. As dumb as it sounds I have tried to put myself in her boyfriends shoes and it's not fair at all for him. I have really been thinking a l ot today and i'm ready for the worst so i don't think the pain will be all that bad. I'm going to give her a 2 week window when she returns to initiate any talk about our future. If she doesn't then I know i can't keep waiting and being #2. It's not kosher.
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